Journal of a Doctor

OMG.  I'm presenting my research thus far in about a half-hour.  I'm scared as balls about to be kicked by my foot.

I was only told that I'm presenting...TODAY!  This morning at 9am.  NOT COOL!  Though I guess if I was told yesterday I wouldn't have slept at all.

I also have a Thermo midterm @ 5.

Today is sucking a lot.

Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse...they did.

My computer crapped it pants big time.  I am crossing my fingers that LTS can save it tomorrow without losing everything...

It is now official that my life sucks right now. :(

20 years ago, I:
- was 1 1/2 and didn't have the ability to remember things

15 years ago, I:
- Cracked my head open on a fireplace and got stitches between my eyes.  The scar is still there.

10 years ago, I:
- had to deal with losing my Grandmother to an brain annuerism.  She's still alive, but she suffered a stroke during the surgery and lost her short term memory and was taken away from us by the man she was living with.  Occasionally when I am home, I will see her when I run to the park.  She will say hi to me, but not know who I am and it's heartbreaking.  Only recently have I really thought about her...mainly when I was at the Natick Mall a few weeks ago and there was a guy playing "Music of the Night"  (from Phantom of the Opera) on a baby grand.  I started crying because it reminded me of her so much (she was a good piano player and singer, and I remember her playing this song often).  Luckily at that point I had a good friend by my side who hugged and comforted me.

5 years ago, I:
- was considering transferring to another high school because I hated the way I was treated by people who took advantage of me.  I also was going through a rough time with family.  I had been betrayed and lied to by my parents.  It took me a long time to trust them again.

1 year ago, I:
- was happily in a relationship with someone I was deeply in love with.

Yesterday, I:
- cried a lot and got little to nothing done at work.  O, I also did terrible on a quiz because I hadn't studied the right things.  It was a bad day.

Today, I:
- woke up, didn't want to get out of bed, and cried some more, but then came to certain realizations.  I realized I need to get my shit together and just move on with my life and go about doing what I need to do.  For the meantime, I need to not in the apartment for long periods of time because I will just think about things and cry, getting nothing accomplished.  There is more, but that's the general gist.  I also finished up homework with a friend, called my sister to apologize for getting angry with her last night, and apologized and talked to my mom.  So far, it's better than yesterday.  Later today I get to teach TSD and then kill some Zombies.

Tomorrow, I:
- will continue with my new perspective and hope that  things get better.

One thing goes wrong and the whole world blows up.

Yep.  That sounds about right.

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1. Do you have a tattoo?
2. How old are you?
3. Are you single or taken?
4. Fish?
5. Do you dream in color?
6. Ever seen a corpse?
7. Hipsters or Hillbillies?
8. How did we meet?
9. What's your philosophy on life and death?
10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be? (this is the most hurtin' internet question ever.
11. Do you trust the police?
12. Do you like musicals?
13. What is your fondest memory of me?
14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
15. Would you cheat ?
16. What are you wearing?
17. Have you ever peed in a pool?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Which do you prefer - short or long hair?
21. What's your favorite day of the week?
22. What's your favorite color?
23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
25. What was your first impression of me?
26. Have you ever done drugs?
27. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

YOUR REPORT CARD:
Category	Grade
Love	A+
Friends and Family	A+
Body	A+
Mind	A
Finance / Career	A
Your Life's Average Grade: A+
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Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well. Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right. Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

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I'm watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.  Harry's in the Prefect's bathroom.  The thought that crossed my mind was: Why would anyone ever need a bathtub that big?  Like, it could fit more than 10 people...is that what it's supposed to be?  Do the Prefects have bath orgies?

And this is why I need something to do...

I'm not babysitting tonight because the mom isn't feeling well.  I was looking forward to it.  :(

On the plus side, I've been told the opportunity will most likely rise again.  So, yay, maybe I can babysit over the summer!  Yay for maybe a second job and getting to play with someone's kid!

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3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Associate you with a character.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. Tell you my favorite user picture of yours.
8. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

Your Stress Level is: 49%

You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard. When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems. But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.

I bought my dress for the fomal yesterday.  This is what it looks like....only it's red and it doesn't look short on me (it's a little below my knees).

I'm going shopping for shoes tomorrow, and that should complete everything!

I'm screwed.

Seriously, anyone need a roomate/know someone who wants a roomate/someone who wants to live in a Mod or 5-person Grad who doesn't know enough people to fill one?